"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of place or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but never break."
Ancient Chinese belief
Saturday, November 18, 2006
FYI
We have just switched Blog hosts. I have copied some of our old blogs (dating back from September), to this new blog. That is why everything thus far is posted under the date, November 18, 2006.
Happy Weekend!
Happy Weekend!
Our Miracle...
In light of the news we have recently received in terms of timelines to meet our daughter and welcome her into our hearts and family, I feel I should take the position of the "encourager" with our adoption group.
I posted a message to our group this evening, as everyone is very discouraged and they don't know what to do next. Can we do something? Most likely, not. We can only continue to pray. However, I hope that everyone can find some encouragement from my thoughts and my words.
I know that this whole process is very disruptive, (we can't move, change jobs, try other adoptive routes {as far as we know})...It is also very discouraging and disheartening. However, God or fate, whichever you believe, has led you to this place in time, for a reason. It is a place of emotional turmoil, but also a place that has been full of surprises in the past. This is a rewarding journey...and although it is not predictable, I believe we must all try to be strong, if not for ourselves, for the children for whom we can each provide a loving home. I too, have been an emotional wreck, and don't know what to do next. Friends and family on the outside looking in, are not as understanding as we would like them to be. But we do have each other, and this group can be a support to each of us.We were blessed by a "miracle" to have actually conceived our 4 1/2 year old daughter. We had been told after 3 years of fertility assessments that I would never carry a viable baby to term, even in-vitro was not an option. 4 weeks later we became pregnant, without intervention. Not only did I carry her to term, she was 4 days late. This is proof to me that miracles are possible, and for those of you without children, please do not lose hope. This dream will be fulfilled. It may not be on our timeline, but it will become reality. We will each have our "miracle".I am the encourager this evening, but I am not strong.We are thinking that our daughter in China, may be our third child, rather than our second. We are not able to get pregnant due to my health, and our infertility, which the doctors still believe exists, but we are looking at other options (surrogate, advertising,...).
What will be will be...
Hugs to all of you.
Krista
I posted a message to our group this evening, as everyone is very discouraged and they don't know what to do next. Can we do something? Most likely, not. We can only continue to pray. However, I hope that everyone can find some encouragement from my thoughts and my words.
I know that this whole process is very disruptive, (we can't move, change jobs, try other adoptive routes {as far as we know})...It is also very discouraging and disheartening. However, God or fate, whichever you believe, has led you to this place in time, for a reason. It is a place of emotional turmoil, but also a place that has been full of surprises in the past. This is a rewarding journey...and although it is not predictable, I believe we must all try to be strong, if not for ourselves, for the children for whom we can each provide a loving home. I too, have been an emotional wreck, and don't know what to do next. Friends and family on the outside looking in, are not as understanding as we would like them to be. But we do have each other, and this group can be a support to each of us.We were blessed by a "miracle" to have actually conceived our 4 1/2 year old daughter. We had been told after 3 years of fertility assessments that I would never carry a viable baby to term, even in-vitro was not an option. 4 weeks later we became pregnant, without intervention. Not only did I carry her to term, she was 4 days late. This is proof to me that miracles are possible, and for those of you without children, please do not lose hope. This dream will be fulfilled. It may not be on our timeline, but it will become reality. We will each have our "miracle".I am the encourager this evening, but I am not strong.We are thinking that our daughter in China, may be our third child, rather than our second. We are not able to get pregnant due to my health, and our infertility, which the doctors still believe exists, but we are looking at other options (surrogate, advertising,...).
What will be will be...
Hugs to all of you.
Krista
CRUSHED...
Well, I am moping around tonight (Tuesday, Nov. 7). I have been spending my evening crying and wondering "WHY?" I received an email this evening stating that we most likely would not receive our daughter's proposal until summer-fall of 2008. How is that possible? Initially, when we began our adoption journey, we had thought we might have our daughter with us this Christmas. Now we may not even travel until November 2008 (2 YEARS FROM NOW....) or later.
I find it hard to believe...there are so many children in need of a loving family...why?? Why can't we have our daughter sooner?
This is so hard...my husband and I spent 2 1/2 years trying to get pregnant with our beautiful angel, J. We are no longer able to consider pregnancy as an option for more children. We want at least two children, possibly three, and would consider more. We felt that we had paid our dues, but now this process is like every failed attempt to get pregnant. You think you are, and then NO, you find out that it will be many months more than expected. What an emotional rollercoaster...
There is not a morning that goes by that I don't think about our baby girl, or an afternoon, or an evening. She is with me, with us, all the time.
Where do we go from here?
I find it hard to believe...there are so many children in need of a loving family...why?? Why can't we have our daughter sooner?
This is so hard...my husband and I spent 2 1/2 years trying to get pregnant with our beautiful angel, J. We are no longer able to consider pregnancy as an option for more children. We want at least two children, possibly three, and would consider more. We felt that we had paid our dues, but now this process is like every failed attempt to get pregnant. You think you are, and then NO, you find out that it will be many months more than expected. What an emotional rollercoaster...
There is not a morning that goes by that I don't think about our baby girl, or an afternoon, or an evening. She is with me, with us, all the time.
Where do we go from here?
An Inspirational Poem...to live by
We are truly grateful for all we have, and strongly believe that Christ our Savior is watching over us and guiding us daily, especially throughout our adoption journey.
I was looking at one of our fellow adopters' (Janet's) blog site, and she had posted the most beautiful poem. I had to share it as well. Janet, hope you don't mind that I copied and pasted it to my blog...
A Poem by Maya Angelou.
Christians
- By Maya Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
I was looking at one of our fellow adopters' (Janet's) blog site, and she had posted the most beautiful poem. I had to share it as well. Janet, hope you don't mind that I copied and pasted it to my blog...
A Poem by Maya Angelou.
Christians
- By Maya Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
Always thinking of "baby"...
I started my Christmas shopping at Toys r Us. While there, I found one Asian Cabbage Patch Baby, named Madeline Paris, born November 1. I have looked everywhere for one of these, and could only find them on the internet...there was only one at the store, it was displayed with 50 others, in plain sight, and was the first to catch my attention...I take it as a sign...maybe our baby was born on November 1 of this year, which means we would have our baby girl by October 1 of next year (she will be under 11 months of age). What do you think??? I had to buy it...she's so cute! (But why do Asian Cabbage Patch's have curly hair??? Odd!)
My husband keeps telling me to focus on today, as I speak often of our newest addition (he thinks I may drive myself crazy). I can't imagine being a first time parent and enduring this wait...my heart goes out to all of you.
We still don't have a name, and I don't know that we will, before we actually meet her. We have now (I should say, I have now...) begun to track statistics for potential names we are considering back to 1991 in the US, Canada, Alberta, Saskatchewan and Quebec (where we spend the most time)...pathetic, yes...but I don't want a popular name, or an odd name, or a difficult to spell name,... Our bio daughter's name is (classic, simple, not very popular). I think that I have too much time to think about everything. I'm looking for another job to keep me busy outside the home.
We just had our 3 month LID anniversary! I find myself getting more excited, and less patient each day...
My husband keeps telling me to focus on today, as I speak often of our newest addition (he thinks I may drive myself crazy). I can't imagine being a first time parent and enduring this wait...my heart goes out to all of you.
We still don't have a name, and I don't know that we will, before we actually meet her. We have now (I should say, I have now...) begun to track statistics for potential names we are considering back to 1991 in the US, Canada, Alberta, Saskatchewan and Quebec (where we spend the most time)...pathetic, yes...but I don't want a popular name, or an odd name, or a difficult to spell name,... Our bio daughter's name is (classic, simple, not very popular). I think that I have too much time to think about everything. I'm looking for another job to keep me busy outside the home.
We just had our 3 month LID anniversary! I find myself getting more excited, and less patient each day...
Adoption Seminar
Here are our girls...J and L (our international student from Korea).
Well, we travelled a few hours with the girls (J and L) to meet Dr. Baxter and learn more about attachment. It was very interesting. Met Drea and Luigi from our LID group. Didn't get a chance to meet Janet, but she was there. We showed up 10 minutes late, as I worked that morning and my hubby said he was sure it would only take two hours to travel...I said three hours...Ladies, guess who was right????
I have spent some time on the internet with our daughter looking at pictures of adopted Chinese babies with their American and Canadian families. She loves looking at those pics, and guessing which baby looks most like her new sister.
All of my girlfriends have been phoning, emailing, telling me names for our daughter. It's really strange because when you have a biological child, everyone asks if you are sharing the chosen names before birth...with adoption, everyone wants to name the baby...go figure. They have come up with some nice names, (Callista, Aja (pronounced Asia),...) but I think we will continue to toss around our five or six names that we have chosen. I feel pressure to choose a name soon, as I've noticed that most of my fellow adopters have already chosen names.
We are off to the cottage this weekend for some family time.
HAPPY 3 MONTH LID on October 12!!! My husband does not yet understand why we are celebrating the months that we do not have our baby.... It definitely passes the time quicker when you have a date to look forward to each month.
Krista
Well, we travelled a few hours with the girls (J and L) to meet Dr. Baxter and learn more about attachment. It was very interesting. Met Drea and Luigi from our LID group. Didn't get a chance to meet Janet, but she was there. We showed up 10 minutes late, as I worked that morning and my hubby said he was sure it would only take two hours to travel...I said three hours...Ladies, guess who was right????
I have spent some time on the internet with our daughter looking at pictures of adopted Chinese babies with their American and Canadian families. She loves looking at those pics, and guessing which baby looks most like her new sister.
All of my girlfriends have been phoning, emailing, telling me names for our daughter. It's really strange because when you have a biological child, everyone asks if you are sharing the chosen names before birth...with adoption, everyone wants to name the baby...go figure. They have come up with some nice names, (Callista, Aja (pronounced Asia),...) but I think we will continue to toss around our five or six names that we have chosen. I feel pressure to choose a name soon, as I've noticed that most of my fellow adopters have already chosen names.
We are off to the cottage this weekend for some family time.
HAPPY 3 MONTH LID on October 12!!! My husband does not yet understand why we are celebrating the months that we do not have our baby.... It definitely passes the time quicker when you have a date to look forward to each month.
Krista
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